Don't Smile

Don't smile
it's a disaster
there's thunder storm inside my lungs
but bunch of joy flooding my artery

Don't smile
it's a poison
overwhelming
as aconitum kills the bug

because your smile
my world has fallen down
and my body has melted in the floor

but, smile
everything just seems
will be fine.


8 October 2015 | 10.17

For you who merely smile.
It is part of yours that i love the most. I trust your smile that makes me believe everything will be alright.  In your smile, i know who you are.

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How do I love thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints – I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! – and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

by Elizabeth Barett Browning

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isyarat punggung

Aku menghela nafas. Kisah ini semakin berat membebani lidah. Aku sampai di bagian bahwa aku telah jatuh cinta. Namun orang itu hanya mampu kugapai sebatas punggunya saja. seseorang yang cuma sanggup kuhayati bayangannya dan tak akan pernah kumiliki keutuhannya. Seseorang yang hadir sekelebat bagai bintang jatuh yang lenyap dari bingkai mata sebelum tangan ini sanggup mengejar. Seseorang yang hanya bisa kukirimi isyarat sehalus udara, langit, awan atau hujan. Seseorang yang selamanya harus dibiarkan berupa sebentuk punggung karena kalau sampai ia berbalik niscaya hatiku hangus oleh cinta dan siksa.

-Hanya Isyarat
oleh Dee dalam Rectoverso.
Kupersembahkan untuk kamu yang mulai menjauh, maaf.

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yesterday

In the edge of tiring night,
I hug his restless soul
amid the morning mist
fight inescapable fate
through endless bridge

I kiss the sun
who full of agony
and taste his heart's ache.
I wait for morning dawn
to sing for serenity
and wish his pain away.

between dew and fog,
I am hoping
to find the way
back to we used to be
yesterday.

25 October 2015 | 22.15

This poem is written for someone who have fought together to set everything back to its place a year ago. Though in the end we decided (you already decided) to give up. 

Wise man said that "memories can be painful. To forget may be a blessing". So, what am i supposed to do if i still can forget every single thing that relate with us? what am I supposed to do if i still hope for the second chance? WAKE UP.

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omong kosong bintang

Kau tak kan secerah Sirius
karena kau jauh diawang
Kau tak akan semenarik Antares
karena kau partikel yang terbuang

Kuberi tahu satu rahasia

Kau Polaris,
bintang utara

sang penunjuk jalan

Ini bukan tentang konstelasi,
titik koordinat penyusun langit.
Ini tentang rasa percaya
bagaimana kau kan jadi penjaga
yang akan mengarahkan
jadi cahaya, penuntun jalan pulang.


18 Oktober 2015 | 23.12
puisi setelah uts dimana tugas syntax belum menyerang secara membabi buta. Ini cuma omong kosong untuk seseorang yang aku suka karena dia gak pernah paham esensi (mungkin). Akhir-akhir ini seneng banget nyepik lewat puisi, lumayanlah dianya gak tau. Kalo dia tau mungkin cuma diem. Ya emangnya mau direspon gimana lagi. Berharap banget lah direspon. Buat apa?

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